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Snälla försök att se hela mig och förstå att det bara är en del av mig, inte hela mig!

Jag är inte en diagnos, jag är en person som har en diagnos.

Jag har ADHD och Asperger, det finns många som bara ser det, dom ser bara diagnoserna och inte hela mig. Diagnosen är inte den jag är, det är bara något jag har (en del av mig, inte hela mig). Det finns så mycket mer ... Jag har en personlighet som inte behöver ha något med diagnoserna att göra!

Vissa tror att bara för att man har samma diagnos som någon annan är man likadana, men ingen människa är den andra lik och en diagnos definierar inte hur eller vem man är som person! Oavsett om du har en diagnos eller inte, kan du ha mer eller mindre svårt för olika saker och det är inte alltid samma saker som andra har svårt för. Människor är olika och jag tycker det är fel att döma folk efter deras diagnoser!

Jag har ibland svårt att koncentrera mig pga. Min ADHD och jag kan ibland ha svårt för förändringar pga. min Asperger, men bara för att jag har svårt för det betyder det inte att jag är helt inkapabel till det. Det finns så mycket fördomar mot folk med diagnoser, om vad de ”klarar av” och inte. Att ha svårt för någonting är inte samma sak som att inte klara av något!

Många tror att man inte kan vara social bara för att man har Asperger. Har man Asberger kommer det med vissa svårigheter, visst! Men bara för att något är svårt det betyder inte att man inte kan göra det!

Jag har fått höra några gånger att det inte är märks att jag har mina diagnoser... Att jag kan vara social, osv. personer med Asperger är inte helt socialt oförmögna men en del har det svårt i vissa sociala situationer! Jag tycker till exempel att det är jobbigt att kallprata, jag tycker det är väldigt obehagligt och jag har svårt att hitta ämnen i en konversation, jag tycker också att det är svårt att "läsa signaler", att veta när jag ska säga eller göra något, det är jobbigt ibland men det är inte något som jag inte kan hantera.

Här är en video som visar hur man kan uppleva ljud och rörelser som jobbigt, sånt som andra personer kanske inte ens lägger märke till. Jag tycker den är ganska bra gjord för den visar hur det kan vara när man uppfattar saker som ljud, färger och rörelser starkare än andra.

I am a human just like you but are still very different. I feel the same feelings, experience the same things… But just a little more than you.

You are happy, I am thrilled!

You are angry, I am pissed!

You are sad, I am totally heartbroken!

When someone hurt my feelings it is as if the whole world is going under.

When I get a hug it is all good again, no matter how bad it was just before.

Sometimes I take everything personal. Everything that happens seems directed to me in some way.

Since I miss a valve in my brain I have to let it all out in some other way, usually it is through my mouth.

I may sound angry and you may think that I am exaggerating but because I do not have that valve of yours all the small things that happens become very big for me. I do not get the chance to filter my thoughts and sort away the bad stuff.

I am not a bad listener, but sometimes it is hard for me to keep my concentration. Water dripping from the tap, a car driving by, someone walking by the window; everything that you are using your valve to filter away remains in my head. I see your lips moving, but sometimes I just cannot manage to hear what you say, even though I really try. I do not ignore you there is just so many other things to listen to. And if we are in a totally quiet room I listen to the silence blended with the thoughts in my head. In my head there is never quiet.

Lying in the couch for a whole day watching movies does not always work for me. After a while it starts to crawl in my body, I lose my concentration, and look at everything else except what is happening on the screen. That is my bodys way of saying that I need some variety. My patience has run out no matter how good I thought that movie was. Give my tired brain a 10 minute break so we can continue after. My brain does not have the same ability as yours to process impressions and I get tired quickly.

Do you get tired of me when I ask you about something then immediately ask the same again? No, I am not slow or stupid. It is just that the answer you just gave me got lost among all other thoughts in my head. So sometimes I need to ask again. And maybe one more time for it to stick successfully, for me to remember.

Do you get mad at my everlasting flipping on things, clothes and everything else that get between my fingers? It is just my way to get rid of some energy so that I can keep my focus on you.

Sometimes it might feel like I do not understand you and your feelings. But I understand so much more than I can put into words. Because when there are strong feelings in circulation my brain becomes controlled by them, and no words can come over my lips. It is enough to keep track of my body and impulses so that I do not perform unwanted actions against myself or others.

Is it annoying when I throw things everywhere? Chaos is my way of keeping order. If someone put my things "where they should be" i can not find anything... Since there is a constant chaos in my head, chaos makes me feel safe and feel that I have control.

Are you amazed of how I can be angry in one second and in the next second I am really happy? Do not be amazed. My mood is controlled entirely by the feeling that gets the upper hand and such can be changed quickly. In my brain everything is in constant motion, sometimes I find it hard to keep up with myself.

Do you think that I often end up in fights and discussions with others? It is just that I hate injustice and refuse to just stand on the side and watch when people get into trouble.

My specialty is to interfere in anything and everything. I do not do it to be a pain in the ass but because I do not have the latch that have that feature. I have no consequence thinking and often puts myself into bad situations to help the people I like or feel pity for.

Do you think that I always embarrass myself? But you see, I do not always think it is embarrassing to jump around, laugh and talk loudly… I do what comes into my mind, what I feel like to do in that moment. I do not have the time to think about what others think about me. There are so many other distractions.

I do not understand instructions as fast as you do. Sometimes you might have to explain the same thing ten times, but I still do not understand a thing, then someone else explain it and I understand directly. For me it is not what you say but how you say it.

Are you tired of me losing my keys every time we are going somewhere and then finds them in my pocket when I get home? Get used to it. My brain is so preoccupied with the surroundings that it does not have the time to remember where things end up. I put away things without thinking about it.

I get intense at times. I might feel more, hate more and sorrow more… But I also love more. For when I love someone, I do it not only with my whole heart but with whole my body.

If you sometime feel like you cannot handle to be understanding around me – go out. Take a break from me, because I can be quite consuming. There is almost always something happening around me. I am in constant motion. But I am not just intense and hyperactive. I am also intelligent and creative. I have got another way of thinking because I do not have the valve. To survive I have created my own little way of being and acting. You must let me continue with that. And if you give me that chance, the chance to be just as I am, let me take care of everything positive that my diagnosis means you will see how much I have to give. You will understand better and I will be proud of you, then you can come along on my journey and discover the world in my view and perspective.

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